I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to spell bureaucracy correctly on the first try. The only reason it spelled correctly right now is because spellcheck fixed it for me.
I’m at the point in my life where I’m not worried about that anymore. There’s spellcheck if I really need to spell it correctly and if I don’t have that available, I’ll just spell it wrong and it’ll probably still make sense to anyone reading it who understands the word.
This kind of goes along with something I’ve been thinking about the last few days, which is the chaos that is my digital life. Every once in a while, and by a while, I mean once a month at least, I’ll have the idea that organizing all of my digital existence is a worthwhile endeavor. I make a plan and then instantly get overwhelmed by it. The scope is too big, the files are spread across too many drives and cloud services and just scattered everywhere.
I was thinking about another one of those runs at trying to reorganize when I came across somebody talking about creative work and that for Neurodiverse folks like me a lot of times we get hung up on all of that planning and immediately getting overwhelmed by things.
Which of course rang very true for my own experience. The advice that person gave is to just embrace the chaos. Just get the words out, get the music out, get the art out with whatever is that hand and whatever is working for your brain. Because the work is the most important part, not whether you have everything organized in time stamped folders and files.
So I’m sitting with this now, this idea that I can just let the chaos reign and write a zine like this one using the dictation option in the Notes app on my phone. It doesn’t matter if this ever gets into my organized writing folder and notebook, although I hope it does. It doesn’t even really matter how polished it is. What’s more important is that I finish the work and share it.
Which if you are holding this in your hands and reading, it means I’ve succeeded.
Making the work and sharing it. That’s all that really matters in the end. I’m gonna do more of that.